Heyy people.. (i wonder who still ever dropping by again)

"Whoa finally you blogging again"..
Yea.. I finally decided to blog again.. after 3-4mths of hiatus; more like gone missing.. heh

hmm.. how am i doin? so far its ok la.. bearable but sigh...

The year started with a lil surprises.. just a lil.. but i would say its scary ones.. because of its uncertainty and i blame my stubborness of not wanting to let things go. Been clinging on  the thing that I thought would be a dear for me. Sigh..

Why is it so hard to get unto the solution? Why I felt hesitated? Why is the nervousness (as i would think it is) inside of me? Why oh why..
There are so many questions poped inside but is it goin as you thought had been or is it goin according to God's plan? What would happen when its not meant to be happen?

Maybe its just the beginning of something anew? hmm possible.. But I would not count on it totally, as there a probability of the opposite. Would it be possible that it is myself that take this thing on my own way; the way I presumed myself that it's goin according to feelings? I wouldn't wanna know..  

Guess thats the catch of it.

However, i guess its not really these question I feared the most, it is the hurting one side of the party or maybe losing both parties altogether or maybe the table turn sides. Yep.. guess thats would be the worst case scenario.. I've sorta been through that.. But that just a brief period, doesn't leave much mark on me.. But I think this would leave one as well... 

Caught on the crossroads at times.. Where to go its up to the one whom made the choices and yet the consequences are far apart from each other.
Why is it so difficult to like someone eh?
But owh well, guess it takes one step at a time. Baby steps i would say.. Small steps at a time. It takes time I would presume. But most of all, I think its better let HIM handle it.. He can do far far better than most of us can.

(anyway, its ok that this post sounds gibberish,  because I just wanted an output)

I dunno when will be the next post.. so yea.. guess thats for all now.